The First Ultrasound -7w2d

Dear Bug,

I was so nervous for this day.  I counted down in my mind and I had excitement and fear in my heart.  I was terrified that things wouldn't work out the way we wanted them to simply because I can't seem to let go of what I know of other people's experiences.  I need to just let go of that and focus on our experience with you.

We got up early as our appointment was at 6:15 am.  As I was driving I just couldn't wait to get there.  I wanted to see you on the screen so badly.  We got there about 2 minutes late but there wasn't even anyone there yet, so that made me feel a bit better.  I hate being late and your dad always tries to do a bunch of things before he leaves causing him to be a tad late.

Once we got in there I signed in on the sheet and we waited for her to call us back.  We didn't wait any longer than a minute.  We were in the room and I got myself ready on the table and the tech came back in and we began.

As soon as she got started we saw you on the screen with your heart beat flickering so strong and quickly on the screen. It was the best thing I've ever seen.  I looked over at your Dad and he had this look of amazement on his face.  We both smiled so big.  The tech took some measurements and you turned out to be a day ahead of what we have you at.  We'll see what happens with the future appointments.

You are beautiful and I can't wait to watch you grow.  I am going to give you all that you need to be strong and healthy because we want you so badly and we love you so much already.

Love,
Mommy

Here is your first close up!

EDD 11.23.12

Telling my Mom's side of the family

Happy Easter!

Today we made the drive to Portsmouth to have lunch with Sarah, Allen, Uncle David, Aunt Joan, Grenny and my parents.  We were excited to see them all because it had been since Christmas but also because we were going to share the news that we are pregnant!

I put together little Easter eggs (I will post a picture soon) with candy and a slip of paper that read "Our excitement can't be matched, for in November a new Moreau will hatch."

I handed out the eggs after dinner while everyone was hanging out talking and I had previously set up my camera on a tripod so I could catch it all on video.  I asked them to go ahead and open it up.  It was fun watching them read the slips of paper and their different gasps and faces as they realized what was happening!

I just love sharing the joy!

7 weeks

How far along: 7 weeks

How big is Baby: The size of a blueberry

Maternity Clothes: This week I broke down and bought 2 Belly Bands- one white and one black.  While I was at the store I also saw some maternity underwear that said they were good for before, during or after pregnancy.  I've been much more comfortable the past few days!

Sleep:Some days I pass out by 7:30 on the couch, other times I feel more awake.  I find myself getting up a few times and having a few weird dreams in between times getting up which leaves me feeling exhausted in the morning.

Movement: Not for awhile.

Food cravings: Cheese, salad with balsamic vinegrette, I've noticed that my appetite isn't as big as it was last week. Once I eat I feel full longer and I can't seem to find foods to satisfy my taste buds.

Food aversions: sweets, spaghetti, garlic

Gender: Won't know for awhile

Symptoms: I feel like the symptoms are coming and going and it's weird because I'd like to be constant, just because that would give me reassurance day after day.  I have heartburn but that comes and goes, fatigue and bloat seem to be the biggest ones. At night I feel cramping and stretching in my uterus

What do I miss: Nothing at all.

Best moment this week: Buying maternity items... it just made me happy

What I am looking forward to: tomorrow- where we'll share with some family members and Monday where we'll have our first u/s

Milestones: Baby is developing mouth and tongue and arm and leg buds sprout! 

Heartburn

Last night I had a major case of heart burn.  I noticed it during the day slightly after eating but after dinner last night it was pretty steady and strong.  I had some TUMs but that didn't seem to do the trick.  It was crazy but also exciting because I like anything that reminds me that you're growing Bug.

I went and bought a BellyBand today to try and keep my pants up.  I'm at the stage where the button can't button comfortably and I'm just so bloated. I'm hoping this helps me feel better.

Love

Dear Bug,
You are more loved than you will ever know.  I can't even begin to tell you how excited people are when they find out about you. Everyone is so excited.

Bring on the sickness and the side effects baby bug, I don't care.  I just want to know you're in there.

Love Mommy

6 Weeks

How far along: 6 weeks

How big Is baby: the size of a lentil bean

Maternity Clothes: Not buying true maternity just yet, but definitely buying shirts that are more loose fitting and pants that are kind of stretchy and giving the waistline!

Sleep: I pass out when my head hits the pillow, but then I'm up around midnight to pee and tossing and turning around 4am.  I'm a sleepy lady these days.

Movement: Not for awhile.

Food Cravings: cucumbers, green olives, buffalo wings, salad with balsamic vinaigrette dressing

Food Aversions: anything sweet makes me gag and carbs like granola bars or muffins

Gender: I don't know. I go back and forth with boy and girl.  Part of me thinks we have two in there...

Symptoms: constipation- yay! Breast tenderness like whoa, thirst, bloat, fatigue, easily winded, hunger

What do I miss: nothing. I'm totally happy!

Best moment this week: hearing our 3rd beta number be so high telling our parents and siblings!

What I am looking forward to: Our first ultrasound on April 9 and my last PIO shot tonight

Telling His Family

We had planned on having dinner with Jarod's family for a belated birthday celebration so we figured this would be a great time to tell them.  We got there around 6 and I was already wiped.  I could have fallen asleep right there.

We ordered our dinner- pizza and salad and Jarod swung by to pick up the food.  When he got back we all chowed down.  I was waiting and waiting for him to spill the beans, but he just didn't!  I playing with Chase and Cora and hanging out and it was time for my nightly shot.  We pulled out all the stuff and started putting it together.  It was funny seeing Jacob's face at the size of the needle.  Apparently he hates shots!

We went upstairs and when we came back down I joked about how it was so much better than when we had to do a shot at the bowling alley last weekend! They all laughed and  Jacob asked when we'd find out some news, I replied slowly with soon... while looking at Jarod waiting for him to react and share the news but he didn't... then I looked at Jacob and back to Jarod and he said we already did find out... we're pregnant.  They all responded with 'No way" "no, really?" then the tears came.  Everyone was surprised and happy and in shock.  It makes me so happy to see others so happy! Jarod's mom was crying and hugging us and we were all smiling.  I told them it would be late November when we'd meet this little bug but that we couldn't wait.

I could see relief on Jarod's face after telling them. Later he told me he was nervous to share.  I totally understand because I felt that way the other day.

Telling My Parents

We went out for breakfast this morning with my parents so we could tell them the news.  I was so excited but so nervous at the same time.  The whole entire meal I wanted to blurt it out but then my heart would start pounding in my ears and I couldn't speak.  It was so weird.  Why did I feel like I couldn't say it? Would it mean that it would be taken away? I don't know...

Finally, as we finished up our meals I told my parents that we were thinking about how they mentioned they might go to Texas for Christmas and that they might want to stay home to be with their grand baby.  Their heads shot up and they just stared at me.  My mom leaned over and hugged me hard.  My dad just looked shocked.

We told them how far we were and what the EDD is and finished paying for the meal.  I think they were still shocked.  When we left we hugged and laughed and smiled and hugged some more.

My mom and I went off to get our pedicures and we did a little bit of shopping to celebrate.  It was a great moment!

Telling My Sister

I couldn't wait any longer to tell my sister.  I texted her mid afternoon to find out what she was doing.  She texted right back and I figured this was the moment to do it.  I took a picture of the word Pregnant on that morning's test and sent it to her.

My heart was pounding as I waited for her response.... I waited, and waited and fell asleep waiting.  I was getting worried. So about 25 minutes later I called her.  She was screaming in excitement.  I guess she was driving so she couldn't text back the way she wanted to.  She was so happy and couldn't believe it.

I love calling her Auntie now and love when she calls me preggo sister!

5 Weeks

How far along: 5 weeks

How big Is baby: the size of a sesame seed

Maternity Clothes: None yet, but definitely feeling full in the clothes I have. Darn bloat!

Sleep: So tired by 7:30 pm. Can't keep my eyes open and I crawl into bed by 8:45/9

Movement: Not for awhile.

Food Cravings: cucumbers... all I want are slices of cucumbers with a little bit of salt on them

Food Aversions: anything sweet and carbs make me gag

Gender: I don't know. I'm still in shock!

Symptoms:  Breast tenderness, thirst, bloat, fatigue, easily winded, hunger

What do I miss: nothing.

Best moment this week: still seeing the double pink lines when I take a test... yes, I still take a test! Hearing that our numbers went up!

What I am looking forward to:  Third Beta and Telling our parents!

Beta #2

I went in this morning for the second blood test.  I got the call during the day at school and my numbers went up to 193! Yay! The little bug is growing!

I am to continue my 2 pills a day and the progesterone shots at night.  I go back Monday March 26 for my 3rd test.  That seems like FOREVER away!

It was so hard to concentrate on anything at work!

More sticks

When went to the pharmacy yesterday I picked up a pack of the digital pregnancy tests.  I used one this morning and was SO excited to see that word pop back at me: Pregnant.

Still does not seem real.

aaaaaaaah! So happy!

Beta Day

I woke up around 5:30 to change and make myself look somewhat presentable before heading to the Bedford office for my blood work.  It was cold but lighter out than I've been used to in the morning, so that was nice.  I drove listening to my Adele cd blasting it up and pretending that I'm just as good a singer as she.  I was happy to see my usual nurse, Cathy, there.  It's been a little while since I've seen her.  I was in and out in no more than 10 minutes.  I headed home wondering what would become of the blood she just took out of my arm.

Once home I snuggled up in bed with Jarod and Daisy.  It's Jarod's birthday so we took advantage of sleeping in!  We got up and had some breakfast and around 11 am we got a call.  Usually they call my cell phone but they called the house and Jarod picked up.  I was nervous when he didn't say much and then he handed the phone to me.  The nurse had a cheery voice as she told me congrats- you're pregnant! The beta was 79.  They like to see numbers around 50. OMG! We're pregnant! An instant smile came over my face and I could barely pay attention to what she was saying to me.    All I knew was I was pregnant and I had to go back for a second blood test on Monday.

I hung up and Jarod and I hugged in tears.  We couldn't believe this worked and we heard that one word we've been wanting to hear for so long: pregnant!

We went out to TGIFridays for lunch to celebrate and watch the Bruins.  We had to drive to Manchester to pick up some more syringes because we have to continue my shots and we ran out. Later on that night we met up with friends and his brothers for pizza and bowling.  It was so hard to not blurt out the amazing news we heard that morning!

Happy Birthday Daddy!

3 more sticks later

The second line is a little bit darker than yesterday.  It still doesn't seem like this could be real.  I can't believe this! We could be pregnant!!!

I showed Jarod and he didn't know what to think.  We haven't talked about it because I think we don't want want to scare it away!

I peed on a stick...

and I saw a faint line.

oh my.

I've never seen any line of any sort.  They are usually stark white and I'm pretty sure they mock me every month.

23 months of this and I finally saw a second line show up.

Holy crap.

We have our blood test on Saturday.  I can't wait to see what comes back...

We love you already

Dear Bug,
We can't believe that we got to meet to you today.  The doctors gave us your picture and we've kissed it many times since then.  Watching them place you in my uterus was just amazing.  We hope you stick around and grow and thrive because we love you already.
love,
M&D